Goddess' Blog

Much to my chagrin life is getting really busy all of a sudden. There are so many projects I'm having to work on because I can keep focusing on implementing all the cool features I have planned for this site and I've had to slow down my coding learning. THIS SUCKS UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

But.... sigh I guess thats just how things go some times right? I'm frustrated that I'm having to juggle so many things. It's not like I can't handle them and thankfully none of the things I have to do are super overwhelming (some if it is fun even!) buuuuut.... it's just not what I want to focus on right now.

In a perfect world I wouldn't have to work a day job and I would be able to hang out with myself and live in some DBZ-eque hyperbolic time champer where I can have damn near infinite time so acomplish all the projects I want to work on. Sigh.... I guess I have to stop bitching and moaning and just get to work.

I'll work but I'm still gonna bitch and moan about it the whole time...

-Goddess

My lack of updates have been mostly indicative of a lot of stuff I've been going through/working on behind the scenes and in the background. In no particular order:

• I broke up with my girlfriend (Sad but nessesary :C )
• I started teaching web design to two friends of mine. I'm hoping to bring them into Neocities
• I got addicted to wrestling (I love AEW, Swerve Strickland and Toni Storm are my faves!)
• I started learning Pico-8 and Godot 4

Needless to say thngs have been buuuuuuuusy! but I'm digging it though. Despite the business of doing all of this while also going to my full time job its been kind of a lot but its been really fulfilling to do all of this. I have no idea when I'll be able to work on full on games but for now I'm really happy with where things are. It's like I'm Goku conserving energy and going through my training arc. It feels good.

Since learning Pico-8 I'm also planning on featuring some Pico-8 games on my site. Mostly other peoples' games that I think are really great and deserve the spot light but I'll also feature my own games (Pico-8 and other engines) when I start making them. I have made games in the past but this is the first time That I'll be making games by coding instead of using logic blocks or interconnecting nodes or other non-code solutions. Wish me luck and I hope I can bring you so games soon!

-Goddess

Not like I was gone for too long but I feel like I hyper fixated web design for a while before I got sick and had to stop. Oops ^^;

But now I'm back and I'm excited to keep working on my site. The biggest changes have been layout changes but I also replaced the animated gif of Jill and Dorothy from Va-11 Hall-A with my own art. I'm still not fully happy with my implementation of my art, it feels really bare at the moment. But as with anything with site updating, over time I'll be able to make it better and better and more eye catching.

For now, I think its gonna be really cool to start actually feeling my site with more artwork. Over time I want to start adding my comics, stories, zines, and more. It's def gonna take me a while to put all these things up but I already have a plan in place for how I'm gonna do it. I'm really excited ^_^

Lastly, In my first blog entry I mentioned writing a short story and submitting it to a publisher for their anthology. Well the sad news is, I didn't get in :C BUT the great news is that aparently they got a good 500 submisstions. They are only including the top 20 submissions of those in their anthology. I made it to top 50!!!!!!!

While I'm sad I didn't get in I'm so glad that I got so far along in the process! When I submitted my story I was annoyed that I didn't hear back from that AT ALL, but now hearing that I made it to top 50 out of 500(!!!!) has me so excited to write more and more.

Just goes to show you that a little headpat goes a long way towards motivating folks (its me I'm folks)!!!

-Goddess

So! I've been spucing things up around here! I feel great!

The last time I made a whole website from scratch was in like.... 2010 or so? Wow, what a different time! I'm having a blast relearning HTML and CSS! Hopefully I'll also be able to learn Javascript too!

I hope you all are enjoying the new website changes. I'm commiting to doing as much as I can from scratch so more advanced updates like guestbooks and things like that will be slow going but I plan to intergrate them on here eventually!

In my last post I talked about being worried about losing my job but I'm glad to say that wasn't on the table thankfully, PHEW! Turns out I was feeling really stressed and anxious after a wild and crazy (in a bad way) last few weeks. This week has been great though thankfully! I don't want to get into the wild and craziness but suffice it to say, its all behind me now. I get to rest and sleep and work on this site some more! Woohoo!

-Goddess

I meant to update sooner but this is how things like this go right? You say you're going to do it but then it takes a while to actually get acclimated to doing it.

I've had a lot on my mind and a lot has hapepned since last month but the gist of it is: I quit my job and my boss took it REALLY personally (it wasn't), I submitted the story I wrote to a publisher as part of an anthology they are making (never heard back :C ), and lastly, I started playing fighting games again.

I have a deep and passionate love/hate relationship with fighting games. They are amazing and so much fun, I love learning them and bettering myself with them, but sometimes the fandom angers me. The toxicity and the shit talking is to be expected to an extent but sometimes it really does just get under my skin, especially when people stop saying anything nice and always talk shit. I gave up on them so many times after so many long stints of toxic interations but with my girlfriend's guidance I've feeling reinvigorated on them.

I started playing Juri in Street Fighter 6 because her play style seems to be the one that suits me the best compared to all the other characters available at the moment. I played Laura in Street Fighter 5 and I miss her dearly! She was the best gameplay style for me. I haven't touched fighting games since SF6 came out about to years ago so it feels like I'm starting mostly from scratch.

There maybe are other things I could and should focus on in life right now. I might get fired from one of my jobs, I need to plan for my upcoming surgery and I really need to do something about my living situation, but for now this feels like the only thing I can control so I'm gonna stick with it until I can find more tangible solutions to my other issues. If I get better at making websites I want to add a comment feature and some music. Hope I can figure it out!

-Goddess

It's been a minute since I've made a blog. Its been so nice to write again and to try to keep up with things like journalling. Did anyone expect I would do that again? Didn't

Writing Novel's lately has been a lot of fun. I submitted a short story to an anthology that was looking for short, horror, erotica monster fucker stories. Oddly specific? Yes but they had come to the right place and I aimed to deliver.

Early in my transition (in 2013) I wrote a lot at the behest of my therapist at the time. It was extremely theraputic but I stopped writing after they betrayed my trust in a huge way. It was so upsetting and writing felt hard to do after that.

So when I started writing my story it felt like "wow I really am out here doing this and accomplishing so much!" I felt really exhilirated. It led me to start reading again and start coming up with more creative story ideas and so on.

That's been an absolute blast.

It all comes full circle with me feeling like I can maybe start journaling again. We'll see how this goes. Maybe I keep up with it, Maybe I don't. If anything though its a great excuse to actually use this site which I have been really meaning to.

I'm so glad Neocities exists! Never leave us please!

-Goddess